Thursday again! Time to do a little "pondering" with Brenda
from Fiction With a Purpose.
Her rules are really easy:
1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge (in her sidebar)
2. Look at the week's prompt
3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a
story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.
4. Go back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list on Brenda's.
5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.
6. AND most of all.... Have fun!
Well here goes - I was raised in a very strict Southern Baptist atmosphere. My mother was, and is, what I would call "the dictator of all dictators" - there are two ways with my mother - her way and the wrong way and heaven help you if you chose the latter. I don't know if anyone has noticed but I rarely mention my mother in any posts. This is the reason. I am her worst failure. To say that we do not see eye to eye is an extreem understatement. And I am not talking about religion here because I am a Christian. But nothing I have ever done has been right as far as my mother is concerned and none of her "punishments" have succeeded in changing me. I have been slapped, hit, switched, yelled at and thrown out of the house. I left home at the age of 16 under circumstances that were not the best - all because I have a mind of my own. To better help you understand - my daughter says it like this - in Grandma's eyes I am the devil and she is Satan's spawn. For some reason, she loves my son though - go figure!
Lately, she has been calling and I received a letter from her telling me how "wrong" she had been. That she "put things on me that she shouldn't have." So what do I do? In my mind it is "too little, too late." But she is an old woman and I know that she will probably not be around much longer. Do I forgive and forget? Advice anyone?
WOW! I had never noticed that you didn't mention your mother and I though my mother was the most controlling woman on the face of the earth :)..... I had to come to grips with my own relationship and decided that it was best - for me- to keep it on a very casual basis (My mother has still not apologized for many things!) - but I will never trust her and that is a shame.
ReplyDeleteAs for you? You need to figure out how you will feel once she's gone if you haven't made your peace.... sometimes it really is best to let bygones be bygones and move forward. (Just don't forget to wear your coat of armor!)
forgive. Christ did it as he was being murdered.
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